Played soccer yesterday... Find it strange that I play better in my fake adidas martials arts shoes than in my original adidas soccer shoes. Weird. Anyway, I got asked to play for a team for the director's cup (ITAS street soccer tournament) by this guy called Fharook. This guy's team knocked my class team out of the tournament last year. Not difficult considering the standard of my class. :P He said that 'I could play', which is one heck of a compliment. The tournament will be held in February I think.

Had jamming last night. Cheapthrills won't be playing on the 17th... That gig is packed already. We will be playing on the 31st though... I think my last gig for cheapthrills. Already, practices and gigs are clashing with cell and church activities... I'll probably still play if I have the time. But considering that they would want to work on new songs, I don't think I'll have the time to jam and play for them. Glad that they didn't take it too badly though... Haha. Maybe its cos i'm not much of a loss... :P

Got this from an article... Many more people than myself feel and struggle the way I do.

An excerpt...
I met a woman who saw worth in me where I had seen little. The hard, cynical shell I had carefully cultivated as a form of protection split apart like a carapace, and to my surprise I discovered that vulnerability need not mean danger. Romance gives intriguing hints of transcendence. I am "possessed" by the one I love. I think of her day and night, languish when she leaves me, perform brave deeds to impress her, revel in her attention, live for her, even die for her. I want to be both heroic and meek at the same time. For a time, and only for a time, I can live on that edge of exaltation. Then reality sets in, or boredom, betrayal, old age, or death. At least, though, I can see in it a glimpse of God's infinite capacity for such attention. Could this be how God views us?

And another...
Sex is such a powerful force that a young person may have trouble understanding how anything else could ever eclipse it. Most married people will tell you that sex within marriage is neither as easy nor as important as they had imagined before marriage. It expresses intimacy, yes, and provides pleasure. But much of marriage consists in making day-to-day decisions, managing the complexities of careers and schedules, rearing children, negotiating differences, juggling finances, and all the other effort involved in keeping a home running.

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Understand... Learn...
Its an ongoing struggle...
Gnawing at your heart
Down: A pain that cannot be dulled

My screams are heard...
Nothing else feels like this hollow
But I know...
Up: A peace that cannot be understood

The urge... The yearning...
It must not distract
Natural if left alone
Sin if pursued...

To be able to choose
is to be loved.
To make the right choice
is to love.
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